Old Friends, Beautiful Photographs

I love how the shiny hulls of the boats in the foreground blend into the water in the background.

Not so long ago, moving away from the area where you grew up meant losing contact with most of your friends. And enemies,too, but that’s not the point here.

Now thanks to Facebook, I’ve been able to reconnect with many of  my childhood and “teenhood” friends. Even if you weren’t very popular, as was the case for me, there are still a lot of people who are instantly no longer a part of your life. These folks include friends and acquaintances from school, church, scouting groups, sports teams, piano lessons, summer camps, the gym and first jobs, to name just a few. All of a sudden, Poof! They’re gone, and it’s on to the next phase of your life.

Look at that beautiful sky beyond the tops of the birch trees.

My father was somewhat well-connected in our little town and he managed to keep in touch with many folks I thought I’d never see again. For my 30th birthday, he and my mother invited to dinner my beloved second grade teacher, a woman I hadn’t seen since we took her to the circus with us back in 19-blabbity blah. Even though I hadn’t seen her in more than 20 years, I recognized her as she stood in our entryway, surely expecting me to be stumped as to who she was. I wasn’t. It was an incredible moment, one I’ll never forget.

Inside an old rail car.

Facebook, however, has allowed me to have a much closer friendship with many of these people I never thought I’d see again. I now know how they turned out,  how many kids they have, the careers they chose, and where they go on vacation. The ability to see photographs of the people and events in their lives makes these revelations more vivid.

Look at the incredible balance of the horse and rider.

One of the people I’ve reconnected with is Steve Shambeck. Our parents were friends, and my sister and I knew Steve and his sister through various activities at church. Although I always stayed busy perfecting my wallflower status, I guess I wasn’t as invisible as I thought I was. Just a couple of years ago, through Facebook, I discovered he remembered me and we became Facebook friends.

Adorable boy smiling as he prepares to race.

While we were busy leading separate lives, Steve grew up to become an extraordinary photographer. This is a subject near and dear to my heart, since my father was a photographer with the Orange County Register for 35 years. I know much more about photography and the art of taking good photographs than the average bear, and when I viewed Steve’s portfolio, it nearly knocked me off my feet.

A perfect shot of The Wedge crashing down on the shore of Newport Beach, California.

His action photos are incredible. Whether his subjects are riding horses, surfing at The Wedge, or playing team sports, he has the ability to capture that split second in time that shows anger, determination, jubilation, defiance and fear on their faces and in their movements.

Look at the expressions on the faces of these rugby players.

I love the expression on the face of the boy wearing red. Look at how his hair is flying in every direction.

He has some of the best surfing photos I have ever seen.

What out for the pier!

He also has an eye for finding a shot wherever he may be: traveling from his home in Southern California to Nevada, exploring Mammoth and Yosemite, or just driving down country roads in rural areas. My husband loves trains, so

These coupled train cars look huge.

I am instantly drawn to train photos. The photos that Steve posted on his Facebook account hit me like those sports photos, triggering me to let out a small gasp as I took in his perspective and detail in each photo.

Luggage stacked up and ready to load on the 1299 car.

The colors on the rail cars are beautiful.

Steve has graciously allowed me to share some of his photos with you here on my blog.

Inside a mill at the mine in Berlin, Nevada

I love the water in motion.



Steve found this old truck hidden beneath brambly trees in Benton Hot Springs.

Rusty old car in Berlin, Nevada

If you are interested in seeing more of his work or finding out about limited edition prints, visit his website at PLS Photography. You can also like his Fan Page on Facebook here. If you live in Southern California and need a photographer for a special occasion, I’m sure he’d love to hear from you.  Give him a call at 714.390.7134 or email him at steve@plsphotography.com.

These photographs are the property of and copyrighted by PLS Photography. They are used with permission in this post. 

The Baker’s Daughter

The sweetest surprise in The Baker’s Daughter by Sarah McCoy had nothing to do with the way that Sarah paints a vivid picture with her words, or the the creativity and research required to come up with blending two stories, years apart, and establishing parallels so uniquely it made me weep. It wasn’t even the wonderful recipes for German bakery specialties at the end of the book, and trust me, those were a very delightful surprise.

The sweetest surprise was how her words forced me to reflect on my own relationships with people I come into contact with on a regular basis. Do I really know who these people are, their tragedies and triumphs, and their hopes and dreams? And how well do I really know those people who are closest to me? Am I always talking, or am I listening?

When I was young and visiting my grandparents, the best part of our days was when we ran errands. When you live on a farm in the country, errands are grouped together and can take hours before you’re finished and ready to return home. On a typical errand day, we would take the topless World War II Army Jeep and the dog and set out on our adventure for the day. Our stops would include the local winery, the egg ranch, the mushroom farm, Rube’s Country Market, the post office, the Calavo fruit packing warehouse and maybe a twirl through Spook’s Canyon to drive through the Harmony Grove Spiritualist Camp.

We never just stopped, bought what we needed and then headed to the next place on our list. Each stop was a visit with a good friends. At the winery, my grandfather would talk to the Ferrara’s about their children, the in-laws, and the wonderful aroma of spaghetti sauce simmering on the stove in the kitchen behind the tasting room. He chatted with the man at the egg ranch and discussed where his kids were going to school, his mother-in-law’s gout, and where the family was going on vacation.

My grandfather’s kindness and curiosity extended to people with whom he came into contact only fleetingly. When he was at the Naval Medical Center in San Diego for heart bypass surgery, my grandfather, a retired colonel, should have had a private room on an upper floor in which to recuperate. Because those rooms were blocked for Neil Armstrong and his Apollo buddies, astronauts who had recently splashed down in the Pacific, he was housed with the rank and file in a large ward. My grandfather befriended the young soldier in the bed next to his; he was wounded in Vietnam and sent home for surgery and recovery. By the time my grandfather was released, they were on a first name basis and the young man was given honorary grandson status.

It never occurred to my grandfather not to know as much as he could about each person he encountered, and he proudly considered each of them his friend. I’m willing to bet you money that most of them were on my grandparents’ Christmas card list and had even been out to the house for dinner.

While I’ve always tried to practice this in my own life, sometimes our busy lives have us rushing around without enough time to look beyond the surface at the people and situations we encounter. Reading The Baker’s Daughter reminded me of the importance of getting to know the people I interact with, not just on a superficial level, but on a deeper level, because I care. Whether it’s on Twitter, Facebook, or with people in my community, my life is richer for knowing them.

I’m off to find my own baker’s daughter.

The Baker’s Daughter by Sarah McCoy is available on Barnes & Noble and Amazon.

Crooked Parking

My husband is spatially gifted. He can visualize a pile of crap neatly ordered and snug in a box, ready to store in the attic. When I want to change the look of a room, instead of allowing me to just move furniture and see what works, he’s the one who gets out graph paper, a measuring tape and a mechanical pencil, measures the dimensions of the room and furniture pieces, and then creates  scale drawings to see if my ideas will work.

He is Mensa smart and can speak intelligently about almost any subject. He seems to have had almost every job in the world at least once and can speak just as easily about how sewage treatment plants work as he can about all facets of architecture, making pottery, emerging technologies, medieval English poetry, and environmentally friendly alternative fuels.

He packs the trunk of a car for a trip like it is a puzzle, with every corner snug, every little space taken up by the perfect fitting smaller object. It’s a work of art, really, and sometimes I don’t want to unpack the trunk before we take a picture for the grandkids.

Why oh why, then, does parking straight, centered in a parking space, elude him? Even worse, why is leaving the car crooked in the parking space, too close to one line or the other, acceptable to this Type A man?

Sometimes when he pulls into a parking space and comes to a stop, my body actually leans because the car is crooked. Instead of straightening up the car before turning off the ignition, he’s out of the car and ready to shop while I’m still forcing myself to sit up straight so I can unbuckle my seatbelt.

He’s not too bad when it comes to turning left into a parking space. I’ve tried to tell him it’s because he has more space in which to make the turn into the sweet spot of the parallel lines. Getting him to apply that science to turning right into a space has been heretofore nearly impossible and he cuts the corner every time.

This is not parking on the diagonal, I remind him.

He’s between the lines, he tells me.

But too close to the right line, I warn him. And if the car parked to the right is banged and dinged, the driver certainly won’t care if he hits our vehicle on his way out of the space.

Not our problem, the hubs tells me.

It is if he cracks our tail light and doesn’t leave his name and phone number and offer to pay for the damage, I tell him.

The secret to parking in a space on the right side of the parking lot aisle is quite simple, really. You drive your vehicle towards the left hand side of the aisle and make a wider turn into the parking spot, coming into it straight, rather than from an angle.

Apparently I speak Greek when I tell him this because he looks at me with a blank face.

Maybe it would be different if someone besides his wife gave him this information. So far, however, no such luck. And his crooked parking nearly always triggers an argument, even when I speak nicely about it, which is almost always.

I have a new theory now. My husband doesn’t like to address the problem because it is one of the only things he doesn’t do well, and he is enough of a competitor that it makes him angry to be reminded about it. By his wife. Who should drive and park worse than he does. But doesn’t.

Happy Birthday Sharon!

I have always adored my sister.

Filled with light and laughter, honorable and wise, she is the closest thing to a perfect sibling that has ever existed.

When we were young, I considered her care to be my responsibility. I never applied for that job; it seemed to go hand in hand with being the oldest and needing someone to take the pressure off being the experimental child. Immediately upon birth she had her own personal entertainment director, security guard, shopping consultant and show-er of the ropes of kid-dom.

Some of my more memorable tasks included protecting her from the evil doctors and the mean nuns who pretended to be caring for us when all they really wanted was to steal important body parts. Sharon was so blessedly naive, she trusted everyone. She had no clue that an untold number of needles would puncture our arms, we would be forced to breathe in harmful fumes, and that knives would slice into our bodies and make us bleed. I tried to warn her, I really did, making several escape attempts and screaming for help. That’s the one time when I think I really failed at my job to keep Sharon safe, because those evil people managed to snatch our tonsils and never return them.

I taught her to swing high on the swing set, to hold tight on the merry-go-round, how to properly pretend that pretzel sticks were cigarettes, and how to race down a big, big hill on your bike onto another big mound of dirt. When she fell and hurt herself, I was there to calm her, wrapping my chubby arms around her shaking shoulders and holding her close to stem her sobs.

When she was hungry and accidentally opened a package of M&Ms in the grocery store, I was the mature one who walked her back to the candy aisle, tucked the opened bag of candy underneath all the other sealed bags, and then walked her out of the store. Because I obviously knew how to handle situations like that.

As we grew older, in a twist of fate usually reserved for angsty songs, she became the leader and I became the follower. For a few years, she was the annoyed and I was the annoyer. I mainly bothered her by adoring her and hangingtooclose to her. She had better taste in clothes, hair styles and room decor. I especially adored her shoes, which she especially despised, since my feet were significantly bigger than hers.

Now that we are adults, there is no one I admire more than Sharon. She mastered motherhood, producing beautiful, healthy, and terribly fun children who continue to be role models for kids everywhere. Her house was always the house where all the neighborhood kids want to play, the place where my own children begged to spend their summers because she is such a cool aunt.

Happy birthday, dear Sharon. Your light continues to shine brightly. Your energy is boundless, your laughter infectious, your joy inspiring, and your service humbling. Fifty years has never looked so easy or so beautiful.

My Sister is Turning 50!

This is a big deal, so we are going to be celebrating this major event for quite some time. In anticipation of the big day, I thought I’d re-post a piece I wrote about my grandfather, recalling the time that my sister and I visited with him  and rode around in his Jeep. Those were wonderful days that definitely call for another visit.

My Grandfather

My sister and I came into my grandfather’s life at the perfect time. He was old enough to be well-seasoned in life, young enough to still have fun, and very, very cool. I always thought of him as very dashing and debonair — he was the only real grandfather I knew who had a tuxedo in his closet. A former commercial pilot as well as a pilot during World War II, he always had exotic stories to tell of his adventures in faraway places. Most important, he knew how to relate to kids, he knew what made us tick, and he knew how to help us have fun.

My grandfather had a topless, old World War II Jeep as his main mode of transportation. He had attached  a vice to the right rear bench seat and used it as a dog leash holder for his best friend Perky. When we would visit, first on our agenda would be to go for a Jeep ride. As a parent, now, I shudder when I think of the safety issues no one ever considered back in the day. Considering we took the Jeep everywhere — on the highway, winding country roads, rocky unpaved roads, and amidst stop and go traffic in the city — we are lucky to be alive.

No seat belts? Check. No roll bar? Check. Nothing for us to hold on to except for the back of the two front seats? Check. No canvas or light weight cover for bad weather? Check. No padding anywhere? Check.

As if to compensate for the extremely un-child friendly vehicle, our grandmother always made she we were bundled up good and snug, presumably because it was a bit drafty with all that wind constantly blowing us about. It had the added advantage of offering us limited protection from street burn in case we ever lost our grip and were flung out of the back of the vehicle. Our bundling consisted of oversized people coats — think of adult jackets on children under 12 — and either a cowboy hat or a scarf attached to a strange visor to keep our hair from becoming a snarled mess. For some reason, my sister always got the cool granddad plaid shirt jacket and cowboy hat; I was relegated the matronly grandma coat and gaudy print scarf. I suspect they used to laugh at me much like we laugh at the dog when we put rain boots on him. If camera phones had existed then, my dorky picture would have been blasted to their military friends all over the world.

Sometimes we would run errands, going to the grocery store or the post office. Our favorite “errand” was going to the local winery. Far from the glamorous Napa and Sonoma wineries you see today, this one looked like it was at the end of an unincorporated street with no zoning laws and lots of strolling chickens, slowing moving farm vehicles, and free range dogs. The tasting room was an add-on to the winery owner’s home and always smelled of whatever delicious creation the missus was whipping up for dinner. A bell would ring in the house every time someone stepped inside the tasting room door.  If her husband wasn’t in, missus winery owner would put down her hot pads, turn the spaghetti sauce on low, and step through the door from her kitchen to the tasting room to tend to her patrons. My grandfather would sample wine and always take home a bottle of red, while my sister and I would sample grape juice and take home a gallon of the only red.

If we weren’t running errands, we were exploring Bear Mountain, driving through Spooks Canyon, sneaking quietly through the spirit camp imagined ghosts escorting us until we left the property, driving across unpaved fire trails in search of short cuts across the mountains, out to the Calavo packing plant, to the mushroom farm or to the egg ranch. We would examine the properties of the patch of quick sand down the road from his home, pick avocados and cukes for ridiculously low wages, dance the polka with him at the local Bavarian eatery, or dine out at Lawrence Welk’s place, which excited my sister and I only because we were able to see the dancing Barbie and Ken dolls.

Patriotic to the bone, once he agreed to let my sister and I raise the American flag on the 15 ft flag pole in front on his house, only to discover later that we raised it upside down, the universal flag signal for distress.  He would just laugh at us and our silly antics, as if we brought him as much joy as he gave us.

Not even close.

The Truth About Who I Was

Over the holidays I received a delightful surprise from my cousin Rob. He had taken home movies from when my sister and I were babies and young tots and converted them to mp4 video files. He saved them to a jump drive and included it in his Christmas card to me. The camera man was my grandfather, and sometimes my grandmother. After the deaths of my grandparents and uncle, these movies were packed away and forgotten about for many years. I’d never before seen these movies and consider them a very precious gift.

The clips are enlightening.

There are the obligatory naked-from-the-waist-down shots of me on a changing table, waiting for a sprinkle of baby powder and a new cloth diaper to be pinned securely to my chubby bottom. Once wrapped and pinned, the diapers would be topped off with a nice little pair of plastic pants. My mom wasn’t trying to be green or save landfills from my poopy messes. Back in the cave days, Pampers hadn’t yet been prototyped, let alone invented. Little plastic pants were the latest technology for preserving our clothing from wet and smelly messes. And I have a faint recollection they were not always successful tools of the trade.

I also saw my former self rubbing my feet together, over and over, in a defined pattern while waiting for my new nappy. While the diapers are now gone, I still rub my feet together in that same way. In fact, I’m doing it right now. Turns out that habit lasted longer than rubbing my nose while sucking my thumb. Thankfully it didn’t give me buck toes.

It turns out my hair has never been manageable. There have always been bits that stick out at odd angles, defying gravity, spiky pieces no amount of mom spit could tamp down. My sister’s hair, on the other hand, was perfectly straight and smooth and rarely out of place. In fact, let me just say it was never out of place, according to these videos. Not on the swings at the park, not at Disneyland while riding the carousel, and not in a raging storm with a torrential downpour and high winds.

Yes, you can also catch me picking my nose.

Finally, the yellowed coloring and pictures of cars and pictures of me in once stylish clothes all make me feel old. Older than usual, I should say. When did the technology of the sixties start looking so dated?

I was once dubbed high maintenance by my other set of grandparents, a label that really hurt my feelings. When I looked at these movies, however, it was clear that as soon as I could walk, I was a handful. Never a little princess, always awkward and yet blissfully ignorant of that awkwardness. I moved constantly, unafraid of any motion that could lead to injury and/or pain. I talked incessantly, frowned, looked earnest, and was not at all gentle. When did that happen? Why don’t I remember this?

It’s funny how we remember what we want to, and conveniently forget anything unsavory.

So to all my family members and childhood friends who have memories of the old me, I apologize for being such a little terror.  For those whose memories need a quick reminder, here are the videos for your viewing pleasure. (This last sentence is directed to my mom and my sister.)

If you are not my mom or my sister, otherwise related to me, or have never met me in person, carry on, there’s nothing to see here. Be on your way and have a great day.

Old Family Photographs

One of my jobs as I go through life has become keeper of the family history. This includes a family Bible that dates back to the early 1800s, letters, memorabilia, personal records and documents, and many, many photographs.

It should come as no surprise to anyone how much I love the photographs. Creativity is in my blood, from my father, a professional photographer, on back through his family. His father was a writer, and his grandfather was a dreamer, and several generations beyond them were adventurers and travelers and maybe even some Knights Templar and keepers of the grail.

My mother’s family has many creative people, I’m sure, but due to their relatively recent lives eeking out an existence as poor farmers along the Volga River in an ironically named town called Grimm, their creativity was limited. Instead of doing frivolous things like painting or writing or learning the new-ish craft of photography, they focused on things like 101 ways not to starve, avoiding conflict with Russian soldiers, and how to stay alive on the march to Siberia. If they could have taken photos or kept journals to document their journey from Grimm, Russia to Fond du Lac, Wisconsin, I’m sure they would have.

Back to the photographs, of which there are thousands.

I’ve never really had a way to easily share them with family until now. At the request of some of them and for the benefit of all, I’m going to post some of my favorite family photos. If you don’t enjoy watching slide shows, then by all means please skip to something else. If you are fascinated by family history, genealogy, and late Victorian and early 1900s photography, you’ll enjoy  this journey to the past.

My great grandmother, Mae Burdge Miller, and her sister Winifred, circa 1880s.

Annie and Freddie Burdge

Bernard P. Miller College Organization photo from 1890's.

Bernard P. Miller, my great grandfather, circa early 1900s.

My grandfather's class photo from the Peninsula Avenue School, 1917.

Marion Smith Oliver's wedding party, of which my great grandmother, Mae Burdge Miller, was one of the bride's attendants.

My great grandmother, Mae Burdge Miller, with her two sons, circa 1907. The oldest son in FMS Miller, my grandfather.

My grandfather, FMS Miller, and his two brothers, circa 1910.

My great great great grandmother, Nancy Robinson Miller, circa 1880.

Anita and Charlotte Tefft, my two great aunts, circa 1920.

Bernard and Mae Miller, my great grandparents, circa the late 1930s.